I’m frustrated

Here is how most days go:

4 am: Alarm goes off. I push snooze. Rowan doesn’t let me get out of bed.

5:15 – 5:30 : I realize it’s too late for me to work out and that I have to get up. Usually Rowan is up by this point and I lay there trying to figure out what to do with him while I make coffee.

I get ready for work and leave by 6:45. Sometime Robert drives me if he needs the car.

I go get my coffee, even though I know I can’t afford it. I do get the absolute cheapest coffee, and I get an employee discount, so it’s not as much as it used to be.

I work. I get hungry and have lunch at about 11, which is usually a lean cuisine. So far, so good.

At about 1 o clock I get obsessed with chocolate frozen yogurt. I can get a small for $1.49, and it’s only 250 calories. Not the worst thing in the world, but still. It adds up, both in calories and money.

I get home about 4:30. I say all day I’m going to work out. A few times I’ve been able to go to the gym, but I got in trouble last Friday for being away from home too long, so I’m afraid I can’t do that anymore. Anyway, when I get home at 4:30, my son really needs me, so I try as hard as I can to at least change clothes before taking him. Dad is usually worn out from the day by this point. Needless to say, I never work out. I have bottles to make, I need to do a load of laundry each day to keep up, the dishwasher needs to be emptied, and I need to start dinner.

I rush to make dinner, feed Rowan, give Rowan a bath and get him into bed by 8. In the meantime, I eat pretty bad too, after doing well most of the day. Rowan never wants to go to sleep, of course, so we fight about it until about 10 or 10:30, until he finally passes out. Then the next day, when the alarm goes off at 4, I’m too tired and push snooze, starting the whole thing over again.

I don’t know what to do. I want to work out. Running is out of the question. The only thing I can think of is working out after work and putting off the night time routine until later.

If you have suggestions or things that have worked for you, I would love to hear them. I can’t believe I ever skipped a workout before I had a kid- I had no excuse…

So, just for today, I’m going to try to avoid doing anything I’ll regret at the end of the day, such as spend too much money or eat bad. We’ll see how it goes. I may even workout, although maybe I shouldn’t set myself up for the disappointment.

~ by uberlibrarian on September 9, 2008.